Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Dreaming Again

  Supposedly, we all dream every night, though we may not remember it. Dreams last only a few moment of intense REM sleep, though they may feel as though they have gone on for hours.
  I had one of those dreams last night, in which I was visiting a campus in some other state, something like a cross between Florida and Indiana... bizarre hybrid! I had with me my son, who was about 11 or 12 and my mother, who did not have dementia in the dream though she did in real life, but had a broken hip and difficulty walking (she never had a broken hip though, that I recall, in real life).
  I was in the bookstore buying something, and the cashier told me to take care of my son. I looked around, and he was gone. I didn't seem too worried about it though.
  I ran into my mother, having a snack at the cafeteria outside, and I just left her there, went out and got on a bus, though my car was parked somewhere. A block later I realized I had left my son and mother behind, and jumped off the bus, but found I was in a completely unfamiliar part of the campus. I started going into all the buildings, but never found the ones I had been in before, where my son and mother might be. One building was the gym. It was particularly strange. To get into it, one had to climb a wooden staircase that moved and swung loose in the air as one climbed. It was frightening, and I didn't make it more than two steps before I jumped off. I knew that wasn't the right building anyway.
  One place that looked like an underground garage was actually a florist's shop, where, in the half-darkness, thousands of flowers glowed. I never did find either my mother or my son.

6 comments:

marly youmans said...

Okay, that's one to take to therapy. Full of partings, "losing" a parent and a child who leaves his mother to navigate a strange world--just like life.

Sounds like maybe you made it to the portal of the underworld at the end! Perhaps you did almost find your mother after all...

Robbi N. said...

Perhaps. It was probably the fact that I was going to have dinner, along with R, with Jeremy and his girlfriend.
The dinner went off very nicely. We all had a lovely talk, and she's a wonderful girl. I like her very much!
We then went home and were supposed to use Jeremy's new soft serve ice cream machine to make ice cream, but he hadn't left the bin in the freezer long enough, and I am still cleaning up the resulting leakage from the counter, though we thought we had wiped it well last night.

marly youmans said...

Ah, well, a nice girlfriend is good news!

marly youmans said...

Oh, man, your word verification is not agreeing with me...

Robbi N. said...

Why? What was it?

Robbi N. said...

RE: the girlfriend, yes it's good news, but there's something not quite right because she is married, or rather separated and not actively seeking a divorce.