Sunday, May 17, 2009
A few nights ago, R., who has wanted to retire himself rather desparately, suggested that if there was indeed a full time position at the college to which I could apply, as a colleague recently suggested there might be, he would retire, take care of my parents as I have been doing, and I could work. I've been mulling this over. It's rather scary. I wonder how I would do with a full-time position, never really having had one. Would I be able to carry on my writing? My yoga? Without them, I could never really be happy or balanced. I suppose I would get used to it after a little while, and would be able to fit things back into my life. Also I wonder whether R. would be able to manage my parents. The last time he had to take dad to the hospital, he was really a wreck. I am kind of used to it, resigned. I don't think he's as strong as I am, but perhaps he would also get used to it. In any case, I should think about this. Perhaps the next time a job comes up, I will apply again. And it's pretty nice that he offered.